my goal

My goal is to be a better older sister and to get closer to my sister. I want to be able to have a close bond with her and still have the kind of relationship where she trusts me but always respects my authority. I know that I have to work hard at this goal because she does look up to me so I have to not always grow a better relationship with her but I have to make sure my life style is appropriate and right so that she can have an idea as to where she should go with her life and what to bringing and take out of hers. I haven’t been that great of a sister and I have to admit. I’ve been into my own thing and trying to get out and have fun I feel like I abandoned her and haven’t fit the “big sister” title.

My goal is to try my best and win her back. She’s 12, a 7^th grader in Entrada academy. Whenever I pick her up from school all I see are little girl showing off skin, hair dyed, piercing in places I didn’t know existed. It bothers me because these are the people she is around most of her time and they aren’t a good influence at all. I know its hard at that age to stay “innocent” or good. Per pressure sucks and the kids are mean. I was bullied in middle school so I know what it must be like for her. But I didn’t have an older sister to run to or to talk to and ask questions. She does! But it’s like she doesn’t, and it hurts because I know she needs me. This is extremely important to me because I know that my little sisters future will depend on her childhood, so now’s the time to make things happen for her and to protect her psychically and spiritually. I have to start talking to her more and asking her more questions to show her that I care. I know that I like to talk and I like when someone listens to me cause it just shows that there’s interest in my life and what goes on in it so I feel like asking her about her day or just randomly speaking to her more would lighten up the shade in between us and we’ll be able to become closer.